What is bliss?

For me, sheer bliss has been the opportunity to be home with my newborn son.  I’m grateful that my doctor put me out on 12 weeks disability after my c-section.  I’m grateful that I had the foresight to take out supplemental disability insurance which afforded me more money towards staying out.  And, I’m grateful that my husband and I were responsible and able to save up extra money for my anticipated time off from work.  What I’m unhappy about, is that we live in Long Island with the standard of living is so high that in order for a family to have a nice home, nice cars, live in a nice neighborhood and have nice things, both parents are forced to work.  I hate it.  I have absolutely no desire what so ever to go back to work.  I’m not afraid of work or don’t want to work.  I don’t mind it at all and quite frankly, I prefer to have the extra money.  But, I don’t want to leave my newborn son.  I don’t want to miss a second of him being this tiny.  I’m so happy that I have witnessed his first smile, his first laugh, the first time he rolled over.  I don’t want to miss anything else.  And with him being in day care full time I likely will miss something.  That tears my heart out.  Truth be told I have been looking into at home positions, however, those are looking difficult to come by.  Especially since my field of expertise is in social services and not computers/technology.  What’s a poor mother to a new born blogger to do?


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